Meet the bball girls in the evening to attend our friend's father funeral wake... Really didn't know what to say and what to do there...So just kept quiet and ate my gua zi....
Most of the people went and it's been a long long time since we've gathered.. No doubt we are the noiest bunch of people around.. We made so much noise in the bus, at the void deck and even MOS burger... Yanhui and Joce were literally fighting there~~ ArGh..So diu lian..nevertheless had so much fun..it really seem like A levels are over... Hope that it'll be over soon... Have so many activities ahead of me... going sentosa, wild wild wet, playing basketball, dragon boating? And work! Many of them signed up to be relieve teachers... It sounds relaxing and fun to be one.. And the pay is reasonably good... The working hours are only from 8 to 1, and you can choose the subjects you want to teach....But being a TEACHER has always been the last thing i think of..
In need of time now to study...will blog again when i'm free...
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Today is Jc1 commendation day~~ There are quite a few smart asses in bball this year.... little benjamin got A A B, Dawei and Yeehar got A B B, and many of them got many Bs and Cs.... Then little benjamin got 2 in maths and yeehar got 3rd among the whole cohort!! Haiz~~ maybe i'll be schoolmates with them next year~
---> This minute i'm falling into it..the next minute i'm perfectly ok~ This is a pretty old song~ But i like it a Lot! and ya...
Never Had A Dream Come True
Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'
How it could be now or might've been
All this I know
But still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Til' the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me too
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I'de lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
Cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'
How it could be now or might've been
All this I knowBut still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true
Til' the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me too
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will
Say you will
You know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use lookin' back or wonderin'
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and tryI just can't say good-bye
No no no no
I never had a dream come true
Til' the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me too
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you
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i'm still awake~ Just finished revising one of the maths topics.. I always got a feeling that i'm not studying enough, just want to get more things done...but yet i can't do anything about it... Everyone's sick, having fever, flu, cough etc..including me... The whether is ever changing + the stress that i'm going through... * ah choo.... sorry...just sneezed again~ Really want to get over this A levels thing as soon as possible, but yet, i want and need more time to study.. This really suck~~ *ah choo...another one....
--> I really have no idea why am i doing this for... they shouldn't have let me know now... What? i don't understand why... back there? Am i supposed to study harder so that you can live in a better place and lead a better life? I'm already doing what i can do..But it doesn't mean anything... Stop telling me all those stuff..i really don't want to listen anymore...ARgH! Talking about planning the future, i don't even know whether i can pass my A levels, and i have no idea hows tomorrow going to be...Just doing what i'm suposed to be doing as a jc student now with no plans, no dreams, no nothing!
---> Deepest desire?? I don't even know what i want... Just living the days as it goes on....
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-->Had my physics practical today~ Will not consider it as very successful... There were smoke coming out from my wire and i heard sparkling sounds, and i could smelt something chao ta and worse..~ i burnt my little finger...how clumsy can i get? but after the circuit was rectified, everything was ok... so on the whole still ok lar~~
--> I'm really worried coz i'm still not feeling stress which means that i'm still not studying hard... How i wish i'm panicking now and when will i feel like a nerd? I really have no idea where will i go or what will i do if A level results are like shit~~ which is a big possibility...
-->Well.. i'm really shock to hear that..the news came really sudden to me... It made me feel that life's really fragile~ You're gone means you're gone!with no warning or nothing~~ Well...you got to be real strong at this time~ Don't let it be an obstacle for you to move on....We are all behind you no matter what happens....Just give me a call if you need any help..
--> This year seem to be an lucky year- to me and friends around me...Never had o many problems before in my 18 years on earth~~ first it was jas, then it was me followed by grace... then so many of my friends hve family problems...HAiZ~~!! What the world coming to...??!!
====ItZ neVeR eAsY tO sToP oNcE yOu'Re sUnK iNtO It====
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My uncles finally left, i finally can go home anytime i want , wear anything i want and do anything i like...!! Just couldn't communicate with them...Come to think of it, it seems like i cannot communicate with any of my relatives...I will complain everytime my relatives come to stay at my house... Think this is one of the repercutions of emmigrating... The point is i don't grow up with my relatives around and i'm already so used to it... Though it sounds sweet when others tell me that they are going out with his/her cousin, this auntie that, that uncle this... and though i don't experience any of this, i'm not envy of them... Maybe because i'm already used to my life.. I doesn't need to visit my grandparents every weekend and when i am going to visit them..it means that i'm on VACATION...meaning that i'm going HONGKONG to shop and eat and shop and eat!!
--> Have been going to school almost everyday this week for consultation..but i'm sort of unlucky... every teacher i tried to look for is unavaliable or busy... i'm abit more motivated to study these few days..but don't think itz enough!! So i shall disappear now and continue to study!!
====It's been two days~! Yayh!!====
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Just came back from swimming~~ Itz been a long long long time since i've swam... Feel so fresh now~~ ready to go and study and chiong through the night!!
--> Grace called when i was in PS with my sis... I should have gone to study with them instead!! ARGH!!!!
====That's alwasys the case====
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Well...My one and only 18th birthday will be over in 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...
MUMMY!!~~ my birthday's over!!
HAhA~~ some friends wished me on 15th morning and thought that it was my birthday... but never did i expect that someone will msg me and wish me happy bithday NOW(17th october 00.30A.M ) and tell me that he's wishing me one day in advance...!!! Oh well...It's the thought that counts...i'll feel better thinking this way... haha~~
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TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY..... spent 18 years on earth le... didn't really celebrate it.. rather... did not celebrate it at all today.. Met yanhui in the morning to study at compass point... Then meishan grace and jas came over to pass me presents!! So sweet of them!! Then went to the airport in the evening coz my uncles are here... But now they are in already Malaysia ... So only my sis and I went to PS for dinner...And tHis is how PaThETICaLLy i had spent my 18th birthday!!
But still i would like to thank all these people who had remembered my birthday and made it some how different in some ways..~ It may be only a short msg, but still i really appreciate it....
ChingWen
JasmineTeo
Gwen
SiewFong
MeiShan => Really love the candle thing!! Thanks!
Renee
Ena
KiKi
ShiMin
Sylvia
Johnson
Deanna
Adeline
WingMan
Sheryl
CharSu
TangKeng
XiuTing
GuoRui
XiaoYan
EileenWong
Grace
YanHui
MingKian
RuiYi
Hazel
PohShan
Please tell me if i had left out anyone k...
P.S..Thanks for tagging~~ really appreciate it!
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WaH~!! see until very full... hAha... feelings got very complicated nowadays... like what yanhui say...really confusing arH!!
---> Went down to paly bball with grace and jas today... Mr kee asked us to play 5 on 5 with the jc1s today~~ Felt so shiok~ It's been a long long time since i've perspired so much and exercised so much.. Actually i wasn't concentrating too much..very tired today!!And today i totally ignored the bitch who's running out of breath soon i guess if she's going to continue wear such tight clothes....Think deanna is very bothered by her too...! Really felt like qie-ing her one on one today..but didn't have the opportunity...not that i'm very good or what.. but still think that she's too bitchy and arrogant and disguisting and bu yao lian to say such diguisting stuff... If you are that good...#7 will not have to bia and play the whole game!! Who do you think you are?
--->After that went to PS's swensens for dinner with my family... It was actually to celebrate my birthday...but it didn't turned out to be a happy dinner... rubbish here and there... Think our gap got wider and wider... Just doesn't like to hear what you all say~ so i just ignored... just got a feeling that everything's not going to turn out well this year....
---> having physics mock exam tml... i'll be going to school to study but not going to take the paper...Coz i'm totally not prrepared for it...
====U.G.L.Y you ain't got no allibi, you're ugly...=====
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Every time i think of the word SRJCians i will remeber the joke that jingkang said...every school's students have their own identities like what-rians, what-lians, what-lites etc... so what SRJC students are called? ....... Serangoondos... DiaoZ right? but it rhymes..haha...~ Anyway..today is graduation day... The 'ceremony' was ok.. Phillip tan sang peng you for us..but he couldn't reach the higher notes and went out of tune upteen times...but itz the thought that counts right?..haha~~ Tammy thiang also sang a duno what song... and the dance team performed too.. it was the same dance as the teachers day celebration...but still i enjoyed it..the dancers were great man!! Then i went up to stage to get the most improved science CG award... I was so cautious can? Afriad that i might trip or something on stage and malu myself + the prize was a huge box and almost couldn't see my steps.... think i watch too much tv~haha...
Took lots of photos with lots of people today... And yanhui managed to take photo with #3...lucky her!! Started hugging some of my friends today-just had a urge of doing so...will miss them... And i really hate those who just turn away..wadeva...itz just somehow seem rude to me...maybe u all were just playing...but i stilll hate it~ And since when did my class became so united? Itz like... we're more united then before, but not exactly united...just feel something weird which i couldn't really explain about lar~~
--> After that went to town with jas grace gwen deanna and ms su.... This ms su is getting more violent~ haha...Oh.. and ya...mS sU got her driving licence already..she drove us there... Think deanna was sort of tensed up when ms su is driving..hahA.. Should have taken a photo of deanna..haha~~ We all wore our not exactly ugly christmas ties when we were at orchard road coz today will be the last time we will be wearing our ties... The tie may look ugly just by looking at it, but it's not really that ugly wore together with our not exactly look like shit coloured SR uniform... Well..obviously i'm starting to crap...
really tired today..i have no idea why coz i did not study today AND yesterday... Think i'm going to die~~ had decided to go to school at 9 tml morning to study in case i sleep until 12 again and start watching television and using the computer....
I'm turning 18 in 2 days time~~ but i'm not excited at all or looking forward to it... 18 leh..marks another new phrase of life, and i bet it sounds more muture and nice to the ears when u tell someone that you are 18 instead of 16 or 17... but think i'm too stressed to be excited for something like that....
====Things just somehow doesn't go the way i want it to be====
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jasmine ar...getting more and more atrocious..!!! haha~~ Zhong sE QinG yOu!!! haha... ignore me and yanhui because of your #3 by saying 'DoN't cAre Her'!!
Jas..~~ watch out arH!! keep my shoes and steal my calculator, make me throw face in front of him and the whole bunch of them in the hall + always poke my butt and squeeze my you know what... *heump* always bully me...!!! And
gwen~ made him left the aquarium when i have got a perfect view...although only his backview.. but better than nothing mah~~hehe.. And
grace~ accomplice of keeping my shoes and suaning me... but hey~~ don't mind u all saying..but please keep it low~~ u know...ge qiang you er...don't want to let the girl who sit near our study table to know...
---> Anyway... ya...don't think i really like him lar~~ think is just because u all always talk about him and link me and him together... i also don't know how i feel about him.... so don't think too much... and i really don't want to degrade my taste....
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---> tml will be the last day of official school day~~ It's called graduation day!! hope it'll be happening and fun... Will miss all those people who made my jc life different... espacially all the
basketball players -- every single one of them!! [foreva bully me de
jasmine][foreva kena bullied by me and always bulldoze around de
deanna][although ahd left us but still a part of us de
yansze][talkative and hyperactive de
jocelyn][always kena fracture dor briused de
grace][gentle yet aggresive de
pohshan][has the most 'sei' when shooting de
gwen][our one and only princessly de
huili][motherly and naggy de
joan][our team's most sporty de
ena][foreva appear in front of the camera de
ruiyi][has the most potential to foul out de
yanhui][our team's kai xin guo de
renee][the craziest and rubbishy de
carmen]... love you people in every way!!
Not forgetting my classmates... [
ruoling][
padma][
gary][
johnson][
mingkai] etc etc....too many to mention... Lessons wouldn't be better...
And of course [
siewfong][
meishan][
mingkian][
zixuan][
s7 people]
Others will include those LTC people, ogl people, and all those people who gossip with me and all the others that i know... Saying a simple hi that have made my day better...
--> Shall bring both my cameras tml... will take lots of photo to remeber all those people who accompanied me thru this tough phase of life!!
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played basketball with grace, jas and gwen yesterday~~ feel so good playing basketball once again~~ It's been a long long since i've exercised~~ feel so old just playing for 15 minutes... we played against the HIHS girls... We trashed them during the 1st 15 minutes, but after that we all started to get tired and lazy to run~~ haha~~ can't deny that we're really weak now~~
--> Anyway~ we had our last physics tutorial with andrew cox yesterday..Then i realised that oh...2 years of
education is ending soon~~ All along i hated jc life except for the time spent for basketball.. always can't wait for this phase of life to end~ but now when it's ending, somehow missed it... as in, not the mugging part...but it's the process.... The slacking and sleeping during boring and useless tutorials and lectures.. going out after school with friends to eat and shop... labouring through the tough basketball trainings and matches... having fun during interhouses, alumni, and the malaysia trips... Being an ogl and a ltc member... going for the ltc camp and organising the activities... Doing cip and playing wheelchair basketball...etc... Come to think of it...Can't believe that i've participated in so much things in just 2 years and meanwhile handling my school work... How did i manage to squeeze so many things into my life?
--> I really don't know what am i going to do if i'm not able to get into U--not even a lousy course... And it is very likely to happen coz I'm still getting Fs and AOs during prelims....Study for another year in JC?? Go to poly? Go overseas? I really don't know.. And i just can't bring myself to sit down and study... How i wish i'm a nerd now~~ at least i will be mugging~ I'm really worried...but i'm not doing anything about it...!!
==== You're not there anymore====
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SHoCK ~ TrAmAtisEd~~ uNbEliEveAble~~ !!!!!!!!!
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ArGh....i'm sick aGaiN!!~down with flu and cough again! Didn't go to school yesterday but went for tuition in the afternoon~~ Went to sgh in the afternoon to take out the dj stent today~~ It looked so small in the X-ray to me.. but it turned out to be much longer and bigger then i thought... can't imagine that itz in my body for 4 months...
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Had been trying to mug hard these two days....but still progressing very slowly coz i'm already very tired after school.... Think it's a waste of time going to school nowadays...lessons and lectures are not productive at all...
---> Shit...u* appeared from nowhere again.. After a long time a few days without seeing you*, when i was just about to forget you*, damnit...u* will appear from anywhere, anytime~~ u* just happened to be right opposite out of so many places~
---> Was chatting with one of my secondary friend on msn these few days...Then he asked me who i actually like~~ i really don't know how to answer him... This was really a tough question to me... I really don't know how i feel most of the time and I can't express what i feel and think....there are so many things that i actually wanted to tell him... but think he'll be stunned, so i just kept it to myself... Wanted to tell him about *him...but didn't have a chance yet. Although this friend of mine is really an BiG ArsE at times...but he is one of those who can be trusted and can really keep secrets if he wants to. He practises attitude and mood discrimination, so must becareful.. Apparently, he's in good mood these few days, so ya...~
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