Well...got back my maths paper 1 today~~ And I'm totally traumatized after looking at the results~~Really felt like crying but its not an appropriate thing to do in class right?? I studied SO DAMN hard for maths k...and all i can do is a 'AO'???? This is the subject that i have most confidence in and i only got a 'AO'..... I was aiming at least for a 'E' for maths and all i get is 'AO' !??! How am i going to do for maths in 'A' levels?? i really cannot imagine~~ i'm really so disappointed with myself..Is this all i can do?? Really scared that i will not srape thru A levels this time~ HaiZ~ Itz not that i'm not willing to study or what...i've studied hard for the prelims, but what i got?? SHIT~~!!! I'm such a failure!!
Itz really a difficult task to act as though i'm ok in front of others saying that i'm alright but crying in the inside~~... I'm really disappointed...feel as if i've let down so many people~ my parents, my tuition teacher and my teachers~~ Mrs ting can be irritating at times, but i feel so sorry that i didn't do as well for my econs~ As for my tuition teacher, well..i really don't know what's wrong with me and my physics...i just don't know how to apply and answer those bloody questions...but what you've said had inspired me and gave me the determination to prove you wrong!!
I will study hard for 'A' levels..so that i won't regret.....
I catch a glimpse of heaven
A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree.
A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday.
He clim
bed to the tree top, ate the apples, took a nap under the shadow...
He loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him. Time went by...
the little boy had grown up and he no longer around the tree everyday.
One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad.
"Come and play with me," the tree asked the boy.
"I am no longer a kid, I don't play around trees anymore." The boy replied,
"I want toys. I need money to buy them."
"Sorry, but I don't have money... but you can pick all my apples and sell them
The boy was so excited.
He grab
da all the apples on the treeand left happily The tree was sad.
One day, the boy returned and the tree was so excited.
"Come and play with me" the tree said.
"I don't have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?" "Sorry, but I don't have a house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house."
So the boy cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the boy never came back since then.
The tree was again lonely and sad.
One hot summer day, the boy returned and the tree was delighted. "Come and play with me!" the tree said.
"I am sad and getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself.
Can you give me a boat?" "Use my trunk to build your boat.
You can sail far away and be happy." So the boy cut the tree truck to make a boat.
He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.
Finally, the boy returned after he left for so many years. S
orry, my boy. But I don't have anything for you anymore.
No more apples for you..." the tree said. "I don't have teeth to bite" the boy replied.
"No more trunk for you to climb on" "I am too old for that now" the boy said.
"I really can't give you anything ... the only thing left is my dying roots" the tree said with tears.
"I don't need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years." The boy replied. "Good! Old tree roots is the best place to lean on and rest.
Come, Come sit down with me and rest."
The boy sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears.......
This is a story of everyone. The tree is our parent. When we were young, we loved to play with Mom and Dad... When we grow up, we leave them... only come to them when we need something or when we are in trouble. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could to make you happy. You may think the boy is cruel to the tree but that's how all of us are treating our parent.
Come to think of it..its quite true~~ *guilt* i spend almost 9 to 12 hours n school everyday... I spend more time with my friends then my parents... At most accompany them on weekends~ but i'm out shopping with my friends or just want to slack at home alone on most saturdays... i will drag my niang to go shopping only when i'm broke and need her to pay for my expenses...So i've actually made the effort to go for dinner with them as often as possible and save my brain juice to think of excuses not to join them for something esle.... They are the ones who will definately be there when I most need help and accompany~~Espacially the period when i'm in the hospital... My niang is always there to accompany me... She will come in the morning and leave only in the evening.. And my die will come everyday after work despite that he's tired from working the whole day!! Then now they are always there to tell me not to worry and get too stressed for my prelims and A levels, there are so many routes in life other then getting into university etc etc etc... Where to find such parents?? Nevertheless... i know that in their hearts they truely want me to get good results and get in U.....The more they don't want to give me pressure, the more i don't want to disappoint them~
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Went to watch Dogeball yesterday with zixuandanielmingkianpingneeyongchuen..... Itz none other then a hahahahahaha show~~~ Went in, laughed for one and a half hours, coming out asking what the hell is the show actually about~~ really quite a unconstructive show i think.. itz more to help me to de-stress....
---> Well...what is the world coming to...?!?! Saw this bunch of primary school kids on the bus while my way home yesterday.. At most they are primary 3 or 4... Boy A was like asking boy B 'do you have a handphone?' boy B 'ya, mine is a nokia ****' Then boy A was like, mine is Nokia ****, think is lastest then your....' They actually have a handphone and they are only primary school little boys who are still wearing their little short pants... And worse they were comparing which model is the lastest and this and that, and i have never heard of those models yet~~ Yuan...u are outdated as compared to those little spoilt brats whose voice haven't even break man~~ I should have taken picture of their xiao zhang look and sure anyone would feel like slapping them...If you haven't wash your hands after going to the toilet, slap them another time please!!!
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Sis came back from her criuse trip today, so accompanied her for lunch at PS...after which i met zixuan jason n yongchuen for movie~~ i swear that i told u that i've watched police story and want to watch the terminal.. still feel the guilt when u all told me that u all actually wanted to watch police story..ASSes!!! so too bad lar~~
THE TERMINAL: The show wasn't as insiring as i thought it will be. Little parts of the show was a little plain and the ending wasn't that good to me... To translate the ending to fairy tale language means : they live happily ever after. Although the actor and actress didn't get together in the end but think they truely love each other. Maybe they are just not meant for each other, well, guess this is what always happen in real life.... Parts of the movie is touching too~ i was trying so hard not to let my tears flow lor..So embarrasing to cry in front of zx they all... all guys somemore, sure kena suaned until xiao one~ But in the end when the cleaner sacrifice to help tom hanks, i couldn't control anymore~ haha, but luckily they didn't know~ haHa~ Heard from my papa that there is really this person who lived in the airport for about 20 years, and he is STILL living in the airport. Tried to find out more about this person's real story, but couldn't find any information online~
This is so true about me~~!!
Personality: You are a reserved and a calm woman but there are occasions when you vent out your frustrations. Those are the exact times you share your piece of mind with everyone. Although you have a thick skin and tend to think that things have to go according to your way, your affable charm makes up for that. You enjoy sports due to your athletic ability and fortitude.
Love Tendency: Your friendly generosity signals men to think you are approachable. Men are constantly surrounding you to the point that there'll be quite a few rumors and scandals you'll be involved in. Your interest in men never seems to end. The tendency to jump from one flower to another gives you the playgirl image.
Life: Even marriage doesn't stop you from being independent. Your great conversational and social skills make you restless to meet new people. An advice concerning your career is that you should choose an occupation that isn't highly competitive because it will deteriorate your health. A business of your own would also suit you very well, especially if it is a boutique or a hair salon.
Guess to many of u i seem to be flirtaous and very hua xin... actually i feel the same at times too... But come to think of it, am I? I still can't put it down for so many years. I'm still afraid to go into another relationship because of you~! Guess i'm still not ready for the ending...
====Guess you already know about how i feel about you, i can sense it. It's been so many years and yet nothing works out. Well...i don't expect anything in return.. I'm already contented with the way we are now~ ====
The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go...
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Out of a sudden... i can blog again~~! Finally! YayE~~!! Didn't blog for a week already~ My prelims finally ended yesterday...Last paper on design experiment...Really feel like slacking for a few days before continuing to study...
---> Seemed to have 48 hours yesterday and i fully untilised the time to really craze around... My physics paper ended at 9am and i went home to wait for yanhui to come my house to upload her hp photos into the comp... And CONGRATULATIONS~~ ur plan worked out despite burning your mambo shirt....haha~~Then met other bball girls at town... Me, yanhui, grace,jas, pohshan, gwen,ena,yansze,ruiyi to watch the new jackie chan movie~~ The show is very nice~~ The policemen all very handsome, but too bad, they all died within half an hour of the show.....haha~~ It's a action movie yet funny and touching...and there are a lot of twists in the show and the stuns are quite good~~ Even the 'badies' have the 'sie'... the show is worth the $7.50 lar...We made so much noise in the cinema can.. Laughed so loudly and ruiyi even screamed... And i've found myself a new part time job..ya... can't deny that itz fun being 'balls'? ....but guess i'll enjoy it more if it's in cantonese coz the way and the tone they speak is different.. After that we went to jalan jalan at heeren and fareast and we took neoprints... It was so squeezy lor~~ Saw so many SR people in town....
climax of the day--->
title: never seen yanhui so panicky in my entire life
We went to taka for dinner and yanhui needed to take some money from the atm machine while we're still eating, so she went alone....After a thousand and one minute later..She RAN towards us holding a stack of duno what... then grace say that it's a stack of money... then u can see all the question marks on our heads.. The first thing she say while still holding the big stack of money was 'I NEED A BANK NOW, I NEED A BANK NOW!!'...and her tone was like really panicky and troubled... She sound as though she had stolen a big bag of money and need to deposit it right away.... Then we all were like staring at her and more question marks popping out... Then while STILL holding the stack of moneyin her hands she went' i pressed wrongly, i took out $1000dollars and i need to deposit it NOW!' and her tone was still as panicky... The first thing that grace said was put the money in your pocket first... Then yanhui acted like her head and her hand wasn't coordinating.... Despite grace jas and me repeatedly ask her to put the money in her pocket first, she was still panicky and holding the stack of money and asking where's the bank... We were all laughing our heads off and she was still asking ' ze me ban'... Then the people around us was like laughing also coz yanhui spoke is loudly and looked really lost... Then after she put the money in her wallet, she nearly squeezed her wallet to death... Then bo bian, i volunteered to help her keep her wallet before she wallet suffocates... then after we found the cash deposit machine, yan hui cleverly deposited the full $1000 back into her account... Then ruiyi was like saying, now u put all ur money in? then later u have to press money again...Then obviously her mind wasn't coordinating well, she didn't know what ruiyi was saying... So she continue to panic....haha~~ This girl ar...still say that she want to be policeman after she graduate... think u will panic if u see robbers robbing a bank or something... haha~~ We were laughing at her for the whole night lor~~ but nvm, lar...she's in good mood today...haha... Yanhui ar....calm down when u encounter problems k...!!~ This is not the end of story k...more to come...the night is still young....
---> Went to jas's house to put down our stuff before going to boat quay to lalala... The lao ban niang was nice enough to close one eye and let me and grace to buy the 1st bottle of alcohol, so we don't need to drink ribina or lemon tea...haha~~ we targeted at the free flow, but i didn't drink a lot ... Yanhui drank quite a lot and think she went super high... Poor grace and jas--the two shou hai zhe from the half drunk yh...and too bad...she kept losing to me with my 'zero' ..haha**AhEmP** haha...~~ It's also the first time that i see yanhui talking rubbish~~ And itz really rubbish k.... Played pool the whole night and met some gao shou... and poor grace and jas, suffering more from the still half drunk yh, they were attacked until they lied on the floor... So diu lian...hhaha~ Saw someone who looked like cheesecake... but luckily itz over... Wanted to 'qie' yanhui on the pool table to 'yi que sheng fu'.... If she lose, she's going to call her and if i lose, i've to do something esle... Then at last~~~ haha, I WON!!!! heng ar~~ if not think i'll really get into trouble~~ So u owe me a phonecall k...
--> Went to jas's place to spend the night... we were still laughing at yh's bank bank bank thing before we sleep...and grace hor~~ think she won't even know that the house is on fire when she's sleeping... She only knew that jas actually hit her on her face when sleeping after waking up... DiaOzz~~
--> This will be the break i'll take before alevels and i've promised to work hard... I've always aimed to be an engineer coz i'm taking physics.. but think that's actually not my interest... So i still have no idea what and where my directions are.. Total lost... Although i don't know what am i studying for, but i think the most important thing now is to study hard first and hope that things will fall into place... Won't give up now since i've already faced and overcomed so much obstacles~
====The whole cycle seem to repeat itself. Didn't manage to drink you off, so let's see...====
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Itz been so long that i've last blogged....And I'm STILL in the school library coz the ding dong in my house can't blog.... It seems as though i've just said that prelims are coming and i still haven't finish studying.... But now...exams are already half way through..and.....i'm dying!!! I'm STRESSed!!!!!
---> Today's physics paper is a GONER!!!! Wasted the whole night and this morning studying for it...it didn't make a lot of difference i think....I think i studied just to wen4 xin1 wu2 kui4...It's like, i study not because i want to study, but just not to feel guity.. After i studying doesn't mean that i know my stuff, only to make myelf feel better....only attempted half of the questions... and not counting those mistakes, i can easily get 20 out of 80 points...lets see how... I've promised meishan that if i get AO and above, i'll treat her eat da4 can1.. Shall study maths later coz i WAN TO SCORE IN MATHS!!!!! Don't want to get 3 Es or 3AOs....
---> Guess what...i'm learning to write more of my feelings in my blog instead of just writing my daily events~~ And my shifu is Ruoling....haha~
====I'm tired...slept at 4 last night...shall attempt to write more next time...Let's guess when my next time will be...HAHA!!====
I catch a glimpse of heaven
In the library again~~ Well...nothing much to blog but deanna insisted me to talk about her ice cream... That day we went to heartland mac to study because the lazy school librarians close the library at 4.30... Then deanna 'volunteered' to buy food and gwen want an ice cream cone also...so she have to buy a total of 2 ice creams... After a while we only saw her laughing and laughing when she came back.... Then she was like saying, the ice creams are gone~~ can you imagine this clumsy girl...She dropped the two ice creams onto the floor just when she left the counter... Aiyoh!!!
yesterday
Went to the mac near gwen's house to study...Charlene and charlotte was also there other then the few usual people.... Studied for about 5 hours then went to play bball near gwen's house~~ The grace, jas and me went to the upper court to support our senior's team...They have a friendly game with another duno what guys team... I tell you ar~~These seniors of mine are really my ou xiangs lor~~ They super ZAI lor~~ Their team got wanxin, charlene,shufen,seehwee,da huili, yuanpei,charlene's batch de no.4, constance,susan...Think their team is sort of the elites of every batch...
Going to get in trouble of i don't go and continue to study.. My physics still have almost half the syllubus untouched and for econs, a bit better lar...left 4 topics?? Around there lar... Hopefully i can score for my maths, but hor, my statistics really cannot make it lar...Oh... and anyway, i lost my sheeps....couldn't find them at night...as in i shi mian... jialat..i don't really feel the stress leh...but i have all stress symptoms.... ARGH!!~!~~!!
I catch a glimpse of heaven
my comp went bongkas~~ i can't post~~ so guess where am i now?? In the school library!! Supposed to be studying now, but so long never update my blog le...
3rd Sept Friday
Had our match with OFS(overseas family school).. Only 5 jc2s went, me, jas, grace, gwen and joce...We combined with the jc1 to play..... Whatever toufu we have, we have given to the opponents, They just anyhow grab, elbow, push, knock, step, scretch...whatever you can find in rough game, they do it!!! Although we lost last year, but it was a fairer game.....Anyway, we won by 3 points, can't really remember the score~ can anyone tell me..... I played like shit for the second half of the game, i was just below the ring and i threw away the 2 points and i missed a fast break!!That makes 4 points!! *guilty*..But still had fun~~ The guys lost, but they have a fairly good game ...Think this team have better 'mo qi' then my batch's team....oh ya..think he's cute...haha...
---> After the match i went off first to meet LIC~~ It's been 3 years since we had a gathering?? Asked zx to fetch me to swensens coz i won't know how to react when i see them... Was quite surprised by the attendence, all of them went except for keith... Me,shimin,wing, tk, zx, alan, ks, jm, wb ,shafik and of course Luc went....Actually the purpose of the gathering was more of sending luc off...he's flying off to sydney on 5th of sept... many brought up the past and we were like 'xiang dang nian...' How i wish we can still be a class!! This bunch of bitches and bastards are one of the most memorable bunch of friends in my life.... They made life in secondary fun and rubbish-ly... Was updated how this bunch of people are doing in their life...and all thanks to them, all those in jc are called jc nerds....ya..in cluding me...actually how i wish i am a nerd, so that i'll mug and mug everyday...The bad thing is that i'm not...and i'm slacking and slacking and worse of all, prelims is only 1 week away!!
4th Sept Saturday
Met subia, ching, zx, alan, mingkian, dania, daniel, jianli, yongchuen, jason in the early afternoon to celebrate zx and subia's birthday.... Had lunch at raffles city de cafe cartel but the guys went off to play bball , so went shopping with ching and subia for a while then meet my sis to do manicure.... Too bad i can only watch coz i cut my nails because of the OFS match... Wah~~ heartbreak to cut my nails ar...now its so short lor~~
--> My family and i had a debate (quarrel) over my prelims...coz i was complaining that i cannot finish studying...Aiyah~ i don't know how to say, but they just don't want to give me any pressure...But i know myself and my standard, i know that i won't do well for my prelims... I cant seem to remember the things that i've studied.... And no matter how hard i study, i just can't finish revising... HaiZ~~~ Going back to study now in 3.....2......1..........+GONE+
====Don't want to think of you can?====
I catch a glimpse of heaven