--->Don't know what's wrong with me these few days... Feeling really very tired... Had not been concentrating in class~!! Didn't have any mood for lessons.. I skipped Andrew cox's double period to sleep in the aquarium for two whole hours and slept through every single lecture...Had been stoning during tutorials as well... Had never felt so lost, so uncertain and so depressed before..What's happening to me? I'm Everybody's telling to be strong and everything's gonna be alright..Tried so hard not to think of it, thought it was only a small matter all along... Stupid thoughts will just take over me ....What if it's not successful? These thoughts just make me scared lar~~ Don't think i can join interhouse or alumni basketball anymore...Even the last training was cancelled becoz of some small matter.. Can't we just play on our own? U may think that i'm very petty..but i'm really pissed off yesterday...It's like...aiyah~~ duno how to say~~ Can't write anymore~~
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--->I'm finally back~!! Finally have the time to sit down and blog~~ Had a super busy weekend, but guess i really enjoyed it..Tis is the type of life i like - doing the things i want and enjoy doing~ Hadn't enjoyed so much for the pass few months coz i've been really busy with school and tutorials.. Not that i don't have any work to do this week, itz just that i've decided to put them aside ... ya...go on and say that i'm a slacker...!
21st may (friday)---> went to the hospital with grace and her mum in the morning. I have to go for some blood test and x-rays..Surprisingly everything was done in one hour, there was practically no waiting time. I have to wait for at least 1+ hours lor. Ya..i'm already immune to all those injections, blood taking ..Used to be very scared of injections but now..still scared, but not as bad le...I left with my mama 1st coz grace still haven't take her tests yet..She have to take a whole bag of blood lor~~Ouch!! i know that it hurts a lot lor~~ and she still have to take another bag next friday~Jia you grace~ let's be strong and hang in there...~!!
--->Then around 6.30, i went to amk to meet grace, deanna and guihe and miaoteng, didn't have a good impression of the two girls espacially maioteng. the way she speaks and her actions really speaks very badly of herself..
--->Something
super embarrassing happened on the bus..deanna and i almost died of laughing lor~~ The bus was very crowded and i didn't have anything to hold on to...I was talking to Deanna when the bus suddenly brake very sharply lor~~ stupid driver~!! then guess what..~ i didn't fall, but i stepped back because of inertia..haha. Then i felt that i stepped on someone's feet..I thought it was guihe's lor~~ so i didn't turn around to look and was like saying' whose feet did i step on ar?' Then suddenly i heard a man's voice' you..stepped..on..my..feet..'..He said that quite slowly and he's tone was very funny lor~~~ I was sooo shock lor~~ then when i turn around, i saw this man in his forties and his wife..~~AHHHH!!!!...I wanna dig a hole and hide my face...
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nd may (sat)---> Had a very fun day morning at MM~....grace me and deanna went to school at 6+ at the pe department's toilet to bathe before the entrepreneur's day.It was quite disappointing~~ There were only aound 10 stalls? Didn't do much constructive things there lar~~ Ran around bullying our junior again...took her shoes and hide it.. Then there was this charity jam..Think it was the most fun activity in the whole morning~~ Four bands performed ..they are really good, although i slept for a while during the performance..didn't sleep on purpose lar coz i slept only 22 minutes the last night..hee...
--->Went to Mac for lunch with Gwen, Yanhui, Grace, Jas, Deanna, Ena, Ruiyi + her bro. Then we went back to school for College day~~ Think it was really boring lor~~ i slept and slept during the speeches~~ i really don't know how to appreciate such speeches... The hall was sooooooooo stuffy and hot~~ and the guy in front of me has this unbearable stanch~~ he almost choked me~~ Went home at ard 7 and was too tired to do anything~~ slept immediately coz have to wake up at 5+ the next morning for the big walk...YaWnZZzzzZ!!
23rd May(Sun)Today!!!!!!! went for the big walk in the morning~~ i walked with GwAn, Grace and JAs. Were were like holding a lot of stuffs when we walk lor~~ Helped the J1 track people to hold their bags as they are competitive walkers... We are supposed to be competitive walkers as well but how can we walk any faster holding so much stuffs? But it was worth it helping them afterall, coz two of them came in 3rd and 6th place..and the other two wasn't that baD...We crapped along the way..but later we were to tired to talk...We discovered GwAn's new plus point~~ she's good at entertaining herself, She can ask and answer her own questions...haha!~
---> went to marine parade's mac for lunch~~ Joan n joce was there with us this time~~ And Yanhui fell asleep after eating AGAIN!!! What's new...Hee.. Went home after that coz i was really tired~~ i slept from 1+ to 5+... Feel like a pig to sleep for so long~~haha~~ but i'm still tired~~ I didn't study at all this weekend and there is a maths test tml..Think i'm going to disappoint mr foo again~~ i promised to get a 'A' for this complex number test~~ so..i'm going to study now and hopefully i can get something good~~
====Doesn't miss him so much now~~ snapping the string~~====
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---> Had physics test today, and its so difficult...
---> nothing much to blog today coz nothing much happened in school~ just the usual stuffs ~~talk n crap with the girls and go for those unproductive and boring lessons...
--->Don't think i will be blogging for the next two days coz i'll not be at home... Shall blog when i came back from College day on Saturday night and will update more about what happened..Guess it'll be a exciting weekend~~
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---> hehe..i'm testing out my new comp now.. coz the old one went bongkas..Cannot enter explorer and it always hang...Then my sis said that it kena virus or something...duno lar~~Anyway..it had been living in my house for 6+ years le...itz time to change anyway~~
--->just came back from Toa Payoh Spots Hall..Went to watch the nationals finals with Yanhui, gwAn, Huili, army, Deanna and saw charlene there, so we watched together lor~! Then saw some NY ballers there also :p....Both girls and boys games are HC vs SA..the girls match quite exciting,and HC emerged as the champion and the MVP is no.9..Think she's really good lor~~ Heard that she was the Nike 1 on 1 champion this year...For the guys..think it was rather a boring match..until the 3rd quarter when the HC guys start to bia for the ball...but they were not able to catch up with the score...SO...SA emerged as the champion this year..the MVP is no.5...but don't think he is really that good leh.. he didn't give a deep impression, unlike the girl MVP... Well life's still revolving around basketball...Someone said this before
'once a basketballer, always a basketballer'...think this is absolutely true!~right My hands are always itchy and i always have the urge to play...
but...when can i recover to play basketball once again?
---> Think i've made someone very sad today and that someone is a very very good friend of mine..feeling very guilty now.. i didn't say it on purpose... i was really only joking....Think i was too insensitive..SORRY!!!
====Hope that this day will not come~~ having to promise them that i will let go..====
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--->Just came back from tuition~~so tired now....anyway...itz SUPER SUPER hot and humid these few days even though it rained.. I can still perspire in class when i'm sitting under the fan.. always feel sticky and uncomfortable~ bUai tAhAn!! perharps itz just in the mind....
--->Had double period physics today..and i almost died of bored-ness...did 2 design experiments and found out that i'm totally not talented in it at all...Can't understand the question most of the time..HAiz~~ Don't know when i'll really settle down and REALLy concentrate on my studies. This is what i wanted to do right after the nationals..
--->Siewfong told me that she's going to cut her hair today, so i'm wondering how she looks like now...Hopefully it will not look like Mrs Koh~~haha~~
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---> Nothing much happened this weekend~~Went shopping with my sis today...Bought a lot of clothes and stuffs...ehm..think i bought two tops and a skirt,and my sis pierced her ears..What makes women like to shop so much...?I also don't understand......Is that called 'buying entertainment'?? But itz definately a very expensive form of entertainment...
---> Yesterday was even a more slacking day... We wanted to watch the 3rd n 4th placing basketball match at ccab..but we didn't go in the end coz many of them couldn't make it at the last minute... Slacked around for quite sometime before meeting Yanhui, jas, renee, Deanna, Yansze and to go to town...Grace meet us at 4+ and we took some neoprints...We roamed the whole of Orchard Road--from PS to fareast and from fareast, i walked all the way back to Ps meet my sis for dinner...But still had an enjoyable day ...I Just enjoy the company from this bunch of people... we can really crap and talk and make fun of each other for hours ...It has already become a routine to stick with them during recess/lunch breaks and after school..Coz we can talk about any secrets without the fear of anyone leaking out anything... Think it's the trust and that had bond-ed us together...
---> Cut my hair yesterday..honestly the hairdresser is seriously quite skill-less...i was so worried when she cut my hair... I wanted to cut only 2 inches..but in the end..think 5 inches of my hair is GONE!~!~!! But still, think it's quite worth it coz itZ only 6 bucks!~!
=====People's telling me to try and go for it...I was really tempted then, but come and think of it...Hey!~ Itz impossible and impractical..Don't want to regret because i'm in a moment of excitment...====
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---> PATHETIC...i'm using the school's comp now..coz my comp cannot go into explorer...erhm..waiting for Yanhui and GwAn until 3...then most probably we'll be going amk to cut our hair before coming back for econs lecture..heard that today's lecturer is Eric Hui.. Really think that he can't teach..As what Andrew Wang said' Eric Hui has four friends..you know who are they...?' the answer is 'the four walls!~' Really lor..then he is damn monotoneous ..
---> Anyway..some updates about yesterday...One of my classmates quarelled with ms lian...He didn't do his homework and yet blame the teacher that she threw his book out of the class.. itz not the first time that he never do his work ...He NEVER does and NEVER pays attention in class ..Whenever any teachers ask him anything..he will just give that idiotic smile and shrug his shoulders..He wasn't suppose to promote..but the principal gave him another chance..Well..thought that he will change for the better this year..but obviously he didn't make use of the second chance that was given to him...He took 3 'F' for the common tests... Think he's wasting tax payers money.. He really doesn't deserves the second chances...I don't even want to mention his name here lor..it'll pollute...Just go to my class and find the one who have the most kham pah face..it must be him~~
--->Then my mood was ultra bad yesterday..don't really know why i'm like that these few days..As what Ms Latha said...each obstacle i face will only make me a stronger person..hope she's right...
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--->I should be very happy now....but why am i not? i really don't undersatand myself.. The feeling of awaiting is definately more exciting then having to seeing him...
---> ya...i was at Bishan's mac studying with Yanhui just now...Then saw cheryl, connie, shuwen( itz this her name? not sure leh)they all again~~ asked them whether they wan the photos that we took in NY the other day...den crap a while then went home le...
---> think in a way~ itz our deanna who glued our team up after the nationals.. She had been asking for lunch/break gatherings often..Of course i appreciates them.. so deanna~~thanks ar....
= i can't control it ... let nature take itz course is the most practical way coz i'm getting really tired to think of it..REAlly wanna snap the string very badly=
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--->Just another day of slacking~~ Pon-ed double period physics to complete my incomplete lecture notes...Time was well utilised-- rather then going to andrew cox's lessons without any homework done and worse..don't even understand what he is teaching~
---> rushed for tuition right after school, was nearly spotted by Andrew cox...heng ar~~!Den rushed back to school at 4 to take picture for the big walk thing... I rush until like nobody's business...but when i reach...ms rivera say it's postponed to 4.30....DIAOZ~~~after that played bball for a while with S7 they all and went for dinner with my mama.....ANOTHER BOING DAY~~!!!
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---> went for the big walk breifing in the morning..was super tired..Sundays are sleeping dayS!!! dragged myself up and met yan2, jas, gwAn, Yanhui, baobei, Ena, joan and joce at j8 at 8am...then we went for breakfast at YaKun... We are supposed to assemble at Bishan Park 1 at 8.30...but as usual...we talked and crapped and played until around 8.25 before we set off from j8 to hunt for bishan park 1... then unfortunately for Joan...her slippers BROKE!! We have to pathetically use plasters to temporarily hold the slippers together in the middle of the overhead bridge...haha~
---> We thought the park was near the main road, but after walking for about 15 minutes..we FINALLY found the directory and guess what? We are still a few kilometres from out destination~~!! OMG!! And WHO led the way? Itz our BaoBei ~~ haha~~ But nvm lar..the briefing was actually redundant lor...listen to the organisors talk crap..haiz~~~
---> After the briefing..We went to Bishan to eat TomYam fish head beehoon..think itz not bad lar...then after that we went to study lor~~ coz tml got maths test...i still haven't finish studying lor...die le!! Then the Yanhui hor~~ she really own pace own target one leh...can sleep in any post, anywhere and anytime... Me and gwen laughed until pEngZ~~ Think i can concentrate when i'm studying with the bball girls..coz itz very motivating to see all of them trying very hard to catch up with our work... Hope we can gather more often and push each other further lor~~
====To those who are worried about me: I don't really know how to tell u all face to face...I know myself--Don't really think i'm falling into the puddle ...itz just temporary, give me some time... i'll snap the string myself... Really appreciate the concern~~thanks for always being there for me~~TAKE CARE too~!! u guys RoCkZzzz====
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--->Went to NY today for their homecoming day...We are supposed to meet at 11..but guess what...our bao bei junior msg me at 11 and told me that she just woke up...haha~~
---> Saw A LOT of people that i've not seen for a long time...espacially those xinmn ppl... saw NY's bball team people also... TAlked to connie and cheryl for a while..then took some photos with them...then ate kachang puteh that cheryl bought..but in the end..think we played with it more than we eat them...Hee~~Think they are same as bhb...never change at all.. miss those days that we hang out together during the 1st 3 months with also...can't stop laughing when i'm with them...
--->Slacked at Ny till 3...then went deanna's hse to watch the NY vs SR's bball match..then watched the sport's day video also..saw GwAn's sian-ed look...and all the candid-shots....super funny can...
I'm floating from this morning~~almost can touch the ceiling liao le.. hope someone can pull me down and make me concentrate n my studies and stop day dreaming....
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Gone~~ my phy test sure flunk this time...got mental block when i looked at the paper...my mind just went blank~ what's the use of studying so hard for it...still get F...haiz~ nevertheless.. still have to study for maths test this weekend...izzit it ironical??
Today is SR's sports day...took part in shot put ..haha, tyco-lly, i've got a sliver medal for it after jas taught me how to throw... Well, we( me,jas n yanhui) were so happy that SHE didn't win...Finally able to shut HER up..! SHE just talk too much lar~~ think more or less SHE knew that we don't want to 'socialise' with her...TOO BAD~~
Some of us played bball after that...of course i've enjoyed myself... but don't know why i got so moody out of a sudden...maybe gwen's friend is right...we're suffering from BWS(basketball withdrawal symdrome)... izzit this lame... I can't express what am i feeling right now~ just feel very bad lar!
Going to NY tml..itz their home coming day...hopefully it'll be fun!
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Just found a new blogskin for my blog...cUtE? haha... My blog still under construction..but should be done soon...provided i've got the time lar.. I'm going to be in trouble tml coz today then i've found out that there's a physics test tml...and i know nuts abt the topics + i haven't study for the gp quiz tml... i was scolded by ms Latha today and yet i still have absolutely NO motivation to study for her quiz... Haiz~~ have be attitude-ing everyone around me( my friends, teachers and even the basketballers)... Having a very bad mood ... so bear with me k... hope it'll soon be over~~hee
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